Aging in Life and Love
/I can’t believe March is over; where did the time go? It feels like life has been coming at me hard and fast. It feels like something else happens once I have a moment to catch my breath. Nevertheless, I’m rolling with the punches. March is always one of the happiest times of the year for me, but this year felt different. I felt an extreme heaviness over me. Most days, I felt like I was suffocating. Then it hit me; I’m probably grieving.
I lost my auntie, aka my bestie, in 2020. I didn’t have time to process her death. I took on a significant role in planning her services. I became the strong one - had to be. There was no time for me to sulk. I got my first taste of real adulthood and what happens after you pass away. It was a learning process, but it made me realize that I needed to reevaluate a few things in my life.
Now, I’m 32, another year older. I’m not sure what aging is supposed to feel like. I remember wanting to be “grown” so badly; now, I only wish to take time a little slower. I’m in my reflection era. I want things to come easy. I want to become the best version of myself. I desire to walk in my purpose. I can see the vision, but it isn’t evident. I’m choosing not to beat myself up about it. I’ve accomplished so much, and it’s okay to celebrate that, even if I haven’t met the goal I set.
Here are a few of my wins from the last year:
I bought a new car - I can’t wait to share more about it. I’m in love, and I worked my butt off to make sure I could get it.
I worked with one of my dream brands, Coca-Cola, for a long-term partnership.
I invested in leveling up my business. Even when times felt scary, I believed in myself.
Sometimes, I have to question my sanity. Like why did I get married 6 days AFTER my birthday? I have no idea because we all know March is all about me, and now I gotta share it with my husband, lol. What can I say?
Hello, year 2; it’s been a wild ride. The last year has caused us to figure out what love looks like for us. Between work, side hustles, and kids pouring into each other didn’t happen. We constantly found ourselves at odds and arguing over silly things. We realized that we needed quality time with each other - just us. We’ve only been on two dates this year, but life has thrown us so many curve balls within the last 3 months - a pivot was necessary.
However, we did explore a new city, and I can’t wait to tell you all about it. If you caught my Instagram post, then you know where we went. Stay tuned!
As always, you know I have to do my honorary birthday photo shoot, and I did it myself with a bit of help from my sidekick.